A quote to share

Just something to share, quite common, but still nice =)  :

You may not think that the world needs you, but it does. For you are unique like no one that has ever been before or will come after. No one can speak with your voice, say your piece, smile your smile, or shine your light. No one can take your place, for it is yours alone to fill. If you are not there to shine your light, who knows how many travelers will lose their way as they try to pass by your empty place in darkness?       

                                                                                  - Anonymous-

P.S.  :
I'll move on. But just not now... Give me some time?
Thanks to those who've accompanied me through this, much Appreciated ~
I'll stay strong for them. Thanks :)

Again

Hmm... Having mixed feelings right now... Mixed feelings towards people, mixed feelings towards things. No idea how to describe, but it sure doesn't feel good @@ Stress? nah. Probably just going moody again, haha. Where did my optimistic cells went? ><

C'mon, cheer up =)

Pity pendrive

Great.... This is the 2nd time my pendrive got 'infected' by viruses... TT  Lost a lot of files. Again. My sejarah and biology notes, AJK lists for both clubs (2008,09,10), some images, and some other stuff... Well, the first time was when I borrowed a teacher's laptop to print a copy of something vital that is needed on that day itself. Later on back home, I found out that over 30 files in the pendrive are corrupted. It's my fault for forgetting to bring the file i printed out at home, so might as well learn my lesson.

So it was yesterday, I handed in my pendrive to a teacher for she needed to check on some pictures i designed in softcopy. This morning what she told me when she returned the pendrive was, "Ying2, pls check if there's any viruses in the pendrive cause I haven't checked it thoroughly (well, not really exact, but with the meaning in it)". I scanned it with a lame antivirus scan, and there you go -228 viruses neutralised- Cool isn't it? @@ It really worsen my mood a lot since I wasn't feeling any good before the discovery.

Lesson learnt, teachers' computers are full with viruses ~~
So beware...

Moody night

Tonight is just like any other night, just that i put aside my homework and other stuff for I'm not in the mood of doing anything. Just facebooking and blogging, wonder how I spent a few hours just on these 2 sites ~~ Forgot to get Marathon form for Kee Wen >.< hope I'll remember to get it on Monday, if it's not too late...

Thinking about miserable stuff since there isn't anything to distract my attention. I realize that I'm not what i thought i could be. I'm just me, nothing more nor less. I thought i can live life without complaining about stuff that are unfair. I thought i can cope with everything. But now i feel i'm losing my patience, my passion, my efficiency and so on... I get frustrated fast by people's jokes, have mood swings a lot, can't seem to understand and care as much as i used to be before. I'm starting to neglect what i always cared, my friends, my duties, my studies. Everything's out of my control now. Sigh, there's still one year to go, wonder how can I get through it.

I'm weak i believe, I can try something and fail once, twice, thrice, but i wonder if i can move on. It's been a long time since I savour success, or solve every single miserable stuff and let go all the stress. I really hope to relax for just a little while... Probably I'm just the useless kind of people.

Hopefully, there's still hope somewhere.

Hoping for a brighter tomorrow~ =)

- Quite emo lately, please don't mind - 

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2 weeks of holidays, wasted. 

Holiday homework, undone.

Mid-year exam, bye bye.

......


Feeling bad. But what can I do, announcing it to the whole world? Most of them will tell me the same thing, like: try again next time - you still have next year - it's over, no use to be sad about it. Yea, and it's all true. But I'd better shut up than hearing it over and over again. I'll go mad.


Hopefully,
I still have the courage to move on.

CN CN CN

            About 2 days till Charity Night. Feeling quite numb now, not too excited nor calm. Just finished writing my speech for that night, credits to Wern Yeen for I kinda copied a lot from what she had written for our proposal intro =) But still that's my piece of hardwork k? Never tried so hard to merge my own piece with another person's work ><

           Charity Night's making me moody~ Wouldn't know if my words or actions accidentally hurt any of my friends but if I did, I'm real sorry... Hopefully it'll never happen again. Still, Charity Night is 2 days away. I really really really hope that the least problems will occur on that day since the problems we're facing now is 'more than enough'. God bless us. Even though I don't believe in one. Any yea, I can really add in some names in the ajk list of Charity Night which are - 'Ying Ying's mom and Ying Ying's housemaid'. They helped to do the booklets which include cutting each A4 paper into half (bout 100 pieces) and folding them accordingly. Really thank them alot.

             As for my committees members, I apologize for any harsh words or angry tones from me. I hope, sincerely, that we can work together as a team and not like what it is for now.  

          Hope Charity Night will be a success (fingers crossed). =)

REPORT (CHARITY NIGHT)

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DATE : 4th June 2010
TIME  : 2245

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Days left     : 15 days
Hours left    : 360 hours
Minutes left : 21600 minutes
Seconds left: 1296000 seconds left...

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Preparation:
- People attending : 100 (till date)
- Performances      : negative
- Souvenirs            : negative
- Booklets             : negative
- Food                  : negative
- Usher                 : negative

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Current status : .....

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- end of report -

Relieved

Suddenly realised that I haven't pass up some form to Yiling. Hmm... When's the dead line again? Probably Friday, Saturday... Guess it couldnt be helped, just can't bother to jot things down (though I never really checked on my notebook)

12.13pm, bout 13 hours had passed since yesterday's Prefects' Gala 2010. Nice? I've no idea. Missed a lot of the wonderful(?) programmes. Heard that some technical error occured during the form 3 dance, Goa. Too bad for them, they did well during all the rehearsals ('all' means theres bout 3 rehearsals before gala, all incomplete though). 

Saturday evening, went to school at 4 and had our last rehearsal. I helped Wern Yeen to do the backdrop, and later realised that I have nothing else to do. Later on I dropped silent, sat down staring away, trying to figure out what's happening to me. Not happy nor depressed, am I crying deep inside? I wonder... But finally I flung away all those miserable thoughts and went for ushering after knowing i'm not involved in the rehearsal.

I'm given the job as the assistant coordinator, didn't do much. Next came ushering, I was appointed to stand by the school gate to usher the attendees esp from other schools. Those who wanted to enter the hall must first walk all the way up to block A along a long corridor and being greeted in the way "Welcome to SMK Bukit Mewah" or "Welcome to Prefects' Gala 2010" for 50++ times. Grand it seems? =) Our blacklight performance was nice I think, with all the cheering and screaming from the audience, but most probably they were just doing it for fun. After that we spent some time getting those glow sticks off our arms for it was attached to our arms using cellophane tapes. And now there's some swelling on my left arm @@

Follow dance was weird. No one really prepared for it. But the audiences seemed to enjoy themselves much, so who cares if it's weird? =) The occasion ended up well, with compliments from teachers and AJKs. We had our share of the remaining food (didn't take any =P) and headed back. 

At last, a happy ending. They are all fine now I guess.
Relieved *cheers~

May Prefects' Gala 2011 be a success =D

Camp =)

Sorry to say that I wasn’t at all eager to go for the prefect camp last Tuesday. For your information, the camp was held from 16^th to 18^th march at the Eagle Ranch Resort PD, quite expensive, RM70, but at least we have beds to sleep on and clean washrooms xD

During team formation, we grouped together and had some brain storm to think of the misi, visi, motto, cheer and so on. My group namely the Vivianites (they use minerals for our groups’ names, guess why…) consist of Thava (the group leader), Vijithrra (guardian angel), Wei Theng, Ong Xin Kai, Komathy, Mervin, Izzat, Mariessa and me. At last we thought of some lame motto and vision + cheer and drew a simple flag, presented it and we went thought the rest of the camp together as a team =)

It was quite a disappointment during the station games cause we're not united and was kinda careless in taking care of the flag and egg the AJKs asked us to protect. We lost everything except the visi misi motto paper in the end. I can't see any unity in our group and I was trying quite desperately to think of something to improve things going. I gave them a shoooort lecture but at last I thought of giving up and just follow the flow. But till now, I regretted that I didnt try my best and was acting inactive throughout the camp. I failed to accomplish what I planned and couldn't help my team members in anyway, well, apologizes.

During the camp, Yi Ling had a bad headache and was suffering badly on the first night. Kiu Boe got his nose bleeding during the obstacle course. And for Jiao Qi, she was not feeling at all well during the second night. I tried to help them but when I see what they're going through, I do not know what to do. And yet I claimed that I passed the PC  test. I was there watching them suffering just to know that I can't do anything to make them feel better, it couldn't have been worse.   

Well, a few words of gratitude from me to my friends there who helped me throughout the camp. Especially to my team members and the leader Thava, thanks for all the help during the camp and also the Obstacle Course, couldn't make it without each and everyone of you. To Callie who helped Yi Ling, Jiao Qi and I xD. To Andrew for helping me alot. =) 

P.S.= To all AJKs and Facilitators, thx for putting much effort in succeeding the camp. We may make you feel annoyed sometimes but we all(?) appreciate your work. Thx for everything. =)